I'm an auntie again :D my sister has just had a wee boy weighing in at 3.66kgs (what's that in pounds?) no name yet but very exciting :D

Yay - really excited - just got the original movie soundtrack for Rocky Horror Picture Show. I remember seeing it for the first time in my teens and being totally blown away, I revised for my A-levels with this album on headphones - the cassette wore out ages ago :p Skipping around the house and looking forward to getting it on my ipod. This movie always makes me feel happy and a little bit kinky ;)

1. Got my hair cut and coloured - I am now a red head, I love the colour - thanks xray for giving me the final bit of courage to go for something a bit different :)

2. Finished chapter seven of my book. This is seriously first draft stuff and there's a long way to go but I'm staying on course for a chapter a month :D

Two things I'd like answers for:

I 'spect Zollo can answer the first - there's a bird that I hear every night outside my window, I'm guessing it's nocturnal because I'm talking proper dark and not dusk - it's makes a Peep, peep sound, repeated over and over again. Any idea what it is?

Second question is quite urgent - how do you get chilli off your hands? Been chopping red chillis and my hands feel like they're on fire - never had this before, I've scrubbed with soap and that didn't work... HELP :(

Enjoying a bit of nostalgia watching Point Break - love it :)

Also - my hands are purple from chopping red cabbage - cool :D

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I've been trying to find a suitably girly / geeky watch for ages and I finally got one off Amazon. It's red, digital and both retro and futuristic at the same time. I love it :) Yay for gadgets made for girls :D

Haven't a clue how this works but am interested to see what happens :p



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Just a wee post to say Merry Christmas to everyone! Also I was so excited to receive a parcel from Mo this morning. It was full of cookies, chocolates and Stollen - which tastes wonderful. It was so lovely to receive a parcel through the post and one that had so much thought and effort put into it. Mo - you do not fail - You Rule :)

Did you know that eating carbohydrates produces seratonin which relieves depression? So when you eat 'comfort' food you are really self-medicating :) I just discovered this and realised that this is probably the reason why I'm getting so much success from the diet that I'm following - I can eat loads of carbohydrates without guilt - so double relief from depression :D Just a wee thing that made me happy and I thought that I would share...:p

From Ness / about Ness - Anyone wants to join in just copy and tell me all your deepest darkest secrets :)...

TELL ME ABOUT YOU
1. name: Kat(rina)
2. birthday: 12th Jan
3. place of residence: Fife (West not the posh bit)
4. what makes you happy: Mother nature
5. what are you listening to now/have listened to last: Lots of Meatloaf (got tickets for the concert in May in Glasgow)
6. do you read my lj: Yes
7. if you do, what is particularly good/bad about it: Would like to hear from you more often
8. an interesting fact about you: I've fired an anti-tank weapon
9. are you in love/have a crush at the moment: That's far too complicated a question ;)
10. favourite place to be: The sea
11. favourite lyric: What's the use of two good legs if you only run away
What's the use of a beautiful voice if you've nothing good to say
12. best time of the year: Winter
13. weirdest food you like: Marmite (you either love it or hate it...and I love it with just about anything)


RECOMMEND
1. a film: Boys on the Side
2. a book: Magicians Nephew (too often eclipsed by Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe)
3. a band, a song and an album: Capercaillie, coisich a ruin, Get Out

PLUS
1. one thing you like about me: You tell it how it is (refreshing and funny)
2. two things you like about yourself: Weird and loyal
3. put this in your lj so i can tell you what i think of you. I have so please tell me all about you
4. POST A PICTURE OF yourself! I fail at technology and you know what I look like

Put on half a pound this week - this is turning into a pattern - lose one week, gain the next but always losing more than I'm gaining so I'm happy :)

Things are still looking up with hubby so that's good. There's even a possibility that he'll brave meeting a few of you in Edinburgh on the 30th - so be gentle and hopefully I'll manage to get along to a few more meets :D

Think I've got all the presents that I need to get but I haven't done any wrapping yet - I can feel the usual last minute wrapping frenzy coming on.

Really enjoying this LJ lark - feel like I'm getting to know everyone so much better and love having a little network of support that I can talk to. It's amazing how you all know so much more about me than the people that I see every day :)

Still not heard anything about the counsellor / therapist - and that's with the doctor increasing the urgency! I'm becoming more convinced that I do suffer from depression as I am so up and down that it's just not funny (well it is... it just depends ;) ) Anyway hopefully I'll get to the top of the list soon and start getting some answers :)

Bob the Builder - cos he keeps my youngest entertained when I need to get things done

Buttocks - I just love a great arse

Boys - cos inside every man is a boy who just wants to come out and play :p

Block - as in Prisoner Cell Block H, great drama in a cardboard prison

Blood - where would we be without it?

Brains - let's face it they're the largest and most effective sex organ ;)

Books - how would I have met all of you without them?

Bottles - of whiskey, life without whiskey would be very dull :)

Bloody, Bugger, Bollocks - great swear words that are just so British

Barmy - cos I am and I would be very dull if I wasn't :D

Could think of so many more but I won't go on :p

spent the morning writing - have finished Chapter 5 so in spite of the boiler episode I have stayed on course for chapter a month target - Hooray!

had a chat with hubby last night - as soon as he started asking me what the problem was I forgot everything that has been bugging me for the last year or so and came out with a really lame "we don't seem to have very much in common". Now when I say I forgot - I completely forgot, as in I looked at him and saw nothing wrong with our relationship, I scrabbled around in my head knowing that I've had plenty to think is wrong but at that moment - all was well! We talked about what we could do about the "not having much in common" came up with some stuff that we can do together and I went to bed wondering what I'd been complaining about all this time. Woke up this morning and remembered everything that's wrong and feel completely blown away by the tricks that my mind plays on me! One thing that I am absolutely certain of is that I am in no state to make any life changing decisions because I can't trust my own emotions / brain to make sense from one moment to the next - roll on therapy, just have to hold out until someone can help me make sense of what's going on!

So come on who remembered that the Girls Guide to 21st Century Sex was on last night? One thing of note was this man who had erectal dysfuntion who had a penile insert that his wife could pump up to give him an erection - it brings a whole new meaning to 'How many pumps?' :D and it definitely took more than two :P

Just feel like posting :P

It was a bit of a weird weekend. I had a great night out on Friday with my friends - good food, good drink and good company. The next day my husband went off to Glasgow for his football weekender with the boys and my mum and dad came over to help out with the kids. It was pretty chilled and the next day I had a really good chat with my mum which is, to say the least, almost unheard of. Mum and dad left at lunchtime, mum and dad in-law took the two older kids to swimming class and dropped them back at tea time - hubby came home, ate the tea I'd made and went straight to bed and then I spent most of the night up and down with kids suffering from colds... It was kind of a good weekend, there were really good bits about it but somehow I just felt really miserable all the time. The inside me just never cheered up. I asked the doc to refer me to a counsellor a month or so back because of how I'm feeling but the waiting list is 6 months long (!!!) so I've asked him to increase the urgency and bump me up the list. I feel like if I don't talk to someone then something is going to burst inside my head / heart. I kind of know the main thing that is making me miserable just now but I don't want to make any major decisions without getting someone to put things in perspective for me as I know that this 'depression' (is that what it is? I've always shied away from letting anyone diagnose me...) is not something new. If I'm going to tear apart the lives of everyone I care about then I'd better be damn sure it's what I really want and not just an 'episode'. So much in my life just now is great, better than it's ever been but this one thing seems to be causing me so much misery - I can't get my focus off it and it's driving me crazy, I've come so close to full on panic attacks three times in the last four days. I'm losing weight (one more pound this week), I've got more friends than I've ever had (:P), I'm finally starting to work out who I really am and what I want out of life, I feel like I'm waking up... the problem is I'm waking up with a person that I would never have chosen if I'd met them now... I feel so shit and so guilty about that and everything that it means if I can't sort it out - I REALLY need to see that counsellor like yesterday before I go and do or say something that I can't undo/say. What is it with this damn LJ thing that has me spilling stuff that I can't bring myself to say out loud? Oh well hope you don't mind my ramblings, it's good to talk... :)

Kids are in bed and hubby came home from his weekend with the boys and went straight to bed - hungover / exhausted. Youngest child not settling so can't relax, up and down giving milk, Nurofen for kids, changing nappies, nothing working. So not exactly quiet but not relaxed and no-one to talk to. In need of love and attention and good conversation - ho hum...

sorry if this is getting boring but I need to let off steam so you're all getting it...

Here's the reasoning that means that I should pay the charges - I should never have written the cheque if I didn't have the funds to cover it and I didn't make it clear enough that the funds were not there and therefore he didn't know it was THAT urgent. Apparently if I couldn't cover it then he could have written the cheque and dropped it into the boiler people's office on the way home... so it is all my silly fault and I won't be doing that again in a hurry!

Needless to say the atmosphere is a bit frosty round here and damn right I won't be doing that again!!

Ok this has sort of come over from the whole boiler issue. We had to pay a £300 deposit on the day that we agreed to go ahead with our new boiler. My husband was at work and he's the only one who can write a cheque from our main account due to him being the only income earner and it being a current account mortgage thingy... so I had to write the cheque from my measly little account and asked him to transfer the money across to cover it. He forgot by one day and so I was overdrawn for one day. I rang the bank to see if I can get the charges waived as it was an honest mistake and I've never done anything like this before and they told me that they hardly ever waive charges but they'd pass it to the income officer to review. They also told me that the charges would be............... £58!!! That's more than I went overdrawn by! £28 for being overdrawn and £30 because they paid the cheque despite me being overdrawn. I phoned my husband to tell him this and point out that I can't afford to cover these charges from my pocket money and it appears that it's my fault for not reminding him to transfer the money. I paid a cheque for something that comes out of joint money and I get lumbered with the bill for a fuck up that wasn't my fault - I'm feeling really hard done by.

Has anyone else been watching this (Girls Guide to 21st Century Sex Channel 5 (UK) late on Monday nights) ? I started recording it because i thought it might be good for a giggle but...um... it's reeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaly rude! There are really explicit scenes in it - they show erect penises and they film real people having real sex to 'demonstrate' different sexual postions... they even attach cameras to their vaginas and penises so you can see what happens inside whilst they're having sex. Now i may be completely out of touch but I thought that you couldn't buy hard core porn over the counter in the UK because you weren't allowed to see these things on film... but switch on the telly and there it is - along with a lady with a cushion shaped like a vagina to show you which bits to touch... it's even got a pull out g-spot! i'm not complaining - I'm all for explicit sex instruction but I just didn't know that they were allowed to show this stuff on terrestrial free-view tv. The only down-side is that they make you look at the downside of sex too e.g. nasty STIs which can kind of ruin the er 'enjoyment'.

It's that time of the week again - the weigh in! This week i gained 1.5 lbs so I'm verging on suicidal... well that's a slight exageration but I do wonder if I'm ever going to fit into those clothes that i've bought as an incentive! The general trend is down but it's so slow and if i plotted my weight loss on a graph it would look like I'd drawn it whilst drunk! i'll just have to keep focusing on the positive - I have lost weight overall, I have more energy, i feel healthier and i can see me feet without the use of a mirror :D